Introduction

My checking account reads $53.12. I have been laid off twice since May 2008.

Go ahead read it again, I know it's a shock. Now imagine trying to accept it. I am starting to feel like I have a disease...maybe I do.

I know that I am an intelligent, rational, hard working person who can accomplish anything if I put my mind to it but here I am woefully unemployed again and I have to ask myself is it me? Now, you might be thinking of course not, you just happened to worked for two companies that made poor choices which hurled them into the Worldwide Economic Black Hole, and you would probably be right. Now the first time I had the usual difficulty with it. I resolved the issue in my mind and accepted responsibility for my part and went on with looking for a job. I even found one and sunk myself into the work I had found, thankful I had a paycheck (albeit smaller) and a place to work. When it happened the second time I couldn't just accept it and move on. I was, and still am, plagued by the possibility, even the likelihood that it is not coincidence.

This may seem trivial, even simple to resolve but with each day that my unemployment grows longer and greater I find it more and more difficult to dismiss as coincidence. This has innumerable effects on me. I have become more depressed than I have ever been in my life. I take my frustrations out on my friends, my family, and even my spouse. I used to be such an easy going nice person but now I am just an pain in the ass.

While I try not to wallow in my suffering (often unsuccessfully) I spend my days looking for jobs or ways to learn new skills that will help me get a job. If you have ever been unemployed you know how boring and frustrating that can be as you watch your bank account dwindle to $0.

This blog will be three fold: 1) On one hand I will post about unemployment its frustrations, pitfalls, and negative effects on anyone that breathes, 2) An accurate account of how the mortgage crisis took down the auto lending industry, and 3) Some verbal venting in the general direction of the parties to blame for above mentioned Worldwide Economic Black Hole (hereafter referred to as WEBH).